Thursday, February 2, 2012

Starting To Feel More Like Me

I have started and stopped this post quite a few times.

Writing,  deleting, then writing again.

Trying to decide what to post about.

Whether I want to post about everything.

Wanting to, then not.

I never want my blog to be a downer!!!

That is why so many drafts.

I think, I was just trying to force myself before I was ready. 

But I’m doing better now.

For the past few weeks my husband has had some health issues.

First was a colonoscopy, which should be just a standard procedure…

Except he had a bad reaction to the anesthesia and got so sick from it.

We were already nervous about it because the last time he had surgery he stopped breathing on the table.

Luckily it didn’t happen this time, he just got very sick.

Then last Friday he had a biopsy.

We got the results yesterday and Praise the Lord, he is okay.

But this whole situation has had me an emotional wreck!!!

I haven’t been myself at all.

I haven’t felt like being online, to be honest, I haven't felt like doing much at all.

I just spent most of my time with him, watching TV and hanging out together.

Finally the haze this lifting and I’m starting to feel a little more like myself.

A Primitive Place ~Tammy

I would love to be able to tell you all that I am this fabulously strong, independent person but….

Something I realized over this these few weeks is,

I’m not!!

I am very dependant on my husband.

He is my ROCK!

He is my everything.

I don’t know what I would do if he wasn't around.

It scares the Crap out of me!

And that’s the truth.

I’m not talking about financial things, even though yes I am dependant on him for that.

But I am talking about just the security of having him around.

The one person in this world that I know loves me completely.

The one person who will always have my back.

The one person who will push me when I need to be pushed.

Or just hold me when I need to be taken of.

We have been in each others lives since 7th grade!

I can’t hardly remember my life without him in it in some way or another.

We were married our senior year of high school.

(No I don’t recommend that, but I’m also not ashamed of the fact.)

This Nov. will be our 25th Wedding anniversary and I have been spending a lot of time just remembering and thinking about all the things we have been through together.

Oh what a Crazy yet wonderful adventure we have shared.

These past few weeks truly had me in an emotional overload.

I do want to say Thank you to those who emailed checking in.

It means a lot to know I was missed.

A Primitive Place ~Tammy

Well, I did get one email during all of this I could’ve done with out.

I open it up and read this….

From: Pat Navratil
Sent: Tuesday, January 31, 2012 2:34 PM
Subject: antiques

I would like to see some REAL antiques on this site ie things from the 1800s. stuff in my house dates from early 1800s to about eighteen fifty when most everything was hand made. some of your stuff has a little age but 1940s and onward is not yet 100 years old which it must be to qualify as an antique. Moat of the old stuff on your site should be called old stuff and collectibles!


I have no problem with the fact that some might visit my website and not care for it.

I can even admit that I have neglected it quite a bit over the last few months so selections are slim.

But who takes the time to email someone and criticize and insult them.

*Just choose not to revisit!!


When reading the, “I would like to see” comment one of the thoughts that came to my mind was.

“Well, I would like to see… myself 25 and a size 3 but…”

Shaking my head.

There are so many wonderful people in blogland but there are so many rude ones in the e-world.

Oh heck, in the real world too.

I just have so much difficulty understanding people when I get messages like this because I know I would never send anyone an email like this.

And no she didn't say anything too terribly awful, like some in the past.

But it is just the fact that here I am dealing with all I have been dealing with lately, sit down to read my emails, and find this!


A Primitive Place ~Tammy

Okay enough of my own personal craziness and ranting.

I did get some exciting news a couple of days ago.

And I do Really Want To Share it with all of you but…

I don’t want to jinx it so I’m going to wait.

Hopefully I will be able to share it soon.

Fingers crossed.

A Primitive Place ~Tammy

Now, you may not hear from me again for about a week because Kelsey should be home tomorrow for a visit.

I’m going to be spending as much as possible with her.

But I’ll be back as soon as I can.

Thanks so much for stopping by to visit.

Until next time…

Take Care and Prim Filled Blessings to you ALL!

A Primitive Place ~Tammy


Tiff said...

Tammy...big ((((HUGS)))! It's hard to deal with life sometimes, but I'm glad your hubby is OK and the scare is over, many Thanks to God for that. My parents met when they were 12 and 13 and married at 16 and 17 and just celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary last year, yours and theirs proves that young love can and does last :)

I'm sorry for the nasty mail you got. It always amazes me how low some people can get. In a way though, I feel sorry for them. THey must be so lonely and desperate that they have become bitter. BUT, that is not something you should have to deal with.

Take care and enjoy the visit.


frontporchprims said...

It's wonderful the love you have for your husband still after all these years:) It doesn't take much to shake you up when half of your heart could go missing. I understand completely. I am happy to hear that it is nothing too major. My parents married when my mom was just barely 18 years old and have been together ever since. They have been a good example for me. I am sorry about the rude people but they are just jealous. There would be no other reason to leave a post or an e-mail like that. Have fun with Kelsy.

pokeberry primitives said...

I am glad to hear you husband is ok Tammy...the thought of going a scare loot that with my hubby brings tears to my eyes...I understand not feeling like yourself...but it is good to hear you feeling better...about the rude email....people are something aren't they?.....that was just stupid to send someone a message like that ....your home is wonderful who cares how old someone's things are it they love it and it makes their home lovely....just someone with a mental problem...glad you didn't let it bother you!!! Take care! Xxoo

Old Road Primitives said...

Hi Tammy, Sorry to hear about your hubby's health scares but it sounds like everything came out good! I feel the same way about my husband that you do yours! He's my rock and has always been there! I've known him since I was 14! We will celebrate our 31st Anniversary on Valentine's Day! Also, sorry to hear about the negative email! That is just crazy that someone would send you something like that! Even if they felt that, why did they have to be so out spoken and negative? I guess that it takes all kinds to make the world go round! Can't wait to hear what your "surprise news" is! Blessings, Kim

~Kathy~ said...

Hi Tammy, sorry for all you have been going through with your husband but Praise God everything has turned out okay. This is what you need to focus on. Things could have been much worse. Forget about the people who want to bring you down. Never dwell on those types of comments. Obviously it is someone who had something to say and maybe it wasn't meant to be negative, just a suggestion. Just take it for what it was. Life is so short to dwell on the negative. Your blog and your posts are what you want them to be and if someone doesn't like them they are free to go elsewhere. You can choose to delete those and enjoy all the positive comments you receive. Looking forward to the good news you will share in the future. Have a blessed day.


WoolenSails said...

I understand how you feel, I feel that way about my husband, we are truly one and I can't think about being without him.

Well, that is a strange letter, if I don't enjoy a blog, or it isn't my taste, I just don't go back, lol.


Farmhouse prims said...

Hi Tammy, so glad your hubby is alright. And I love hearing stories about people being in love and depending on each other. He is your soul mate. Sorry you have had some bumps in the road lately. Bunches of hugs to you, Lecia

Jan - Life on Buttermilk Hill said...

Tammy, So glad your hubby is ok--mine had a colonoscopy and they DID find something. Luckily the cancer was removed by the biopsies!!! His surgery was then about blessings!!! It is an unpleasant, but necessary procedure. I can't blame you for wanting just to keep close to him during your worried time!
As far as the mail--just enjoy the things YOU chose to have in YOUR house---after all, you didn't invite her to live with you!! She needs to worry about her own house and home and advise people only when asked!- Don't worry about people like that--life is TOO SHORT!!! :) Jan-Life ON Buttermilk Hill

Lorna/Live Oak Primitive Peddler said...

Hi Tammy, sorry for the rough time you've had. I totally understand your Hubby being your rock and I think that is wonderful!! I feel the same about mine, just celebrated 45 years!!

Sorry for the nasty email you got. Some people just can't be nice I guess. Heck just be silent if you can't be nice.:-)
Take care!!

Wendy @ Ravenwood Whimzies said...

Hi Tam - I think you have been perfectly correct in spending all your time with your hubby...I know what you mean about them being our 'rock'...and I am sure many of us would do the same in a similar situation...perhaps we should all spend more times with our hubbies every day!
Don't let those few people with nothing better to do hurt are perfectly correct in calling many of your items vintage...because like it or not...the 1940s were a LONG time ago. I don't really understand this particular person feeling the need to tell you what she did...if she doesn't like your site, then she should move on...ugh! Guess you have to just brush it off and think of all the people who DO like your site! :-)
Hope the rest of the week goes well hon...hug your hubby and try not to stress too much.

bettyj said...

First of all I love visiting your blog and find it very enjoyable. Secondly, I am glad your husband is okay. Cannot wait to hear what you are going to share. Have fun with your daughter.

Penny said...

As with the others, I'm sorry you have been going through so much lately. Life does have it's many ups and downs, doesn't it? I'm so happy to hear that your DH is okay, and can understand how something like that would really shake you up. I can't imagine being without my hubby either -- we started dating at 17, dated 6 years before we married, and will celebrate our 35th anniv. this summer. We have known each other our whole lives -- were in the hospital nursery together (born 3 days apart), grew up a block away from each other, and went to kindergarten together. Anyway, I'm glad you are starting to feel more like yourself now -- and I hope that you will have a wonderful week ahead with your daughter!

As far as that email from the rude lady..... it is unbelievable to me that people feel the need to write and be critical. As you said, just don't visit again if you aren't interested in what you see. No need to be rude.....

You have my curiosity up with your "surprise news!!"

Dog Trot Farm said...

How very rude, My mother instilled in me, If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all! Glad to know your husband is now okay. Enjoy your time with your daugher, blessings from Maine, Julie.

BumbleBeeLane said...

Tam~ Glad everything is Ok with hubby.Yes life can be trying at times and we just need a break that's usually when the mean people strike too.They really aren't worth your time.So sad for them they have no life but to try to hurt others.Sooo your daughter is coming.Yay hope you have fun.Big hugs!~Amy

prims by olde lady morgan said...


I had been thinking of you... I am so glad everything as worked out... Biopsy...YIKES, always a scary word... and the waiting, awful..been there a couple of times, it is draining! And then the colonscopy equally scary..So glad everything worked out.
Couple of years ago when I had to have mine, I got sick from the prep..pasted out broke my nose!
Then that email...truly what is wrong with people???? I think computers and email has made us ruder...says things we would never say face to face, yet forget equally rude....
Go have a fun date night with hubby and enjoy! And enjoy your daughter's visit too! THinking of you! OLM

Cheryl said...

I've been a follower of your blog and don't always leave comments.
Just wanted you to know I think it is wonderful how you feel about your husband.....I'm the same way.
Glad he is doing fine now.
Sorry about the rude email....but there are people out there that just seem like they have to be that way and I have come across many like that even in my family!!
I just let that stuff go and continue on with positive thoughts and try to enjoy life to the fullest!
Have fun,

Sherri Farley said...

Your post really struck a chord with me. My husband of 39 years recently had a heart attack. Luckily, he is fine, he received 2 stints and has no detectible damage to his heart. The thought of losing your best friend, confidant,etc,etc, is very scarry indeed! I still have moments....

Raymond Homestead said...

Tammy, whenever you write about how you feel, I can so relate. Everything you say, I think, wow, she feels and thinks like I do.
Glad your husband is ok, that's good news!
I have no tolerance for rude people. I don't know why some people feel the need to be that way. They must be very unhappy or something.


Hi Tammy,
i am so glad your Hubby is okay. The waiting on the biopsy results are the worst. It is nice to spend time with your Hubby. I have seen mine 4 times since Christmas. He is my rock. We must talk 20 times a day, and we can finish each others sentences. After 36 years, there is no one I would rather be with. You just know when you have the diamond! Some people are just so rude. If they can't say something nice to you, don't talk or write anything. These people apparently have little to do in their life but critisize others. There are alot of mean and ignorant people in this world. You are one of the sweetest ones. Have a wonderful evening with your Hubby. Hugs,

Beth said...

Why in the world would a total stranger send an email like that to anyone? Crazy! (And shameful!) It's best to avoid and ignore negative people. =)

Glad your hubby is ok. A few years back my own husband had a health scare and I was petrified! Everything turned out to be ok, though but it did make me realize how easily my happiness could go away!

Your blog is great! ~Beth

Never So Simple said...

I am so happy your husband is ok. I know what you mean about him being your rock.

I love your blog and your house. Why do people feel the need to one up all the time? Blog friends are the best heck with the rest!

Earlene said...

That was a very rude comment! I would never do that either.
Glad your feeling better Tammy and your husband is healthy.
You two lovebirds enjoy yourselves!

Lee Hill Primitives said...

I am so glad that your husband is OK. I am so sorry that you have negative emails recently, is rude to say things like that to others. I think is better don't say anything if you can not say something nice to others. Who cares if we have antiques, vintage, old things ... those are things that means something to us and we loved them. Enjoy yours!
I am posting about a Antique, Old or Collectible change please, feel free to participate and show yours.

cynthia lee designs said...

Hi Tammy,
I know exactly how you feel about your hubby, because I feel the same way about mine. We dated in high school and got married 2 years after graduating...and have been married for almost 33 years. I would be lost without him.

So glad your hubby's results came out okay...that is awesome news!!

It is just beyond me why someone would want to be so mean and hurtful...shame on them for sending you that email.

So happy for you that your daughter is coming home for a visit...have a wonderful time with her.


A Primitive Homestead said...

I can understand you just wanting to be by his side & being dependent on him. You love him. You two are one. I have been just like you with my husband. I have felt like my world has ended since he gave up on us. Savor all your time with your sweat heart & be happy always sweetie. Enjoy your visit with your special daughter. So rude & hurtful your email was. Your home & style is amazing. Heck I call those old things on your selling site antiques to. My moto is not all like the same thing or agree with opinions but if you don't care for what someone has then just leave that site & not come back if nothing nice to say then say nothing. Hugs & Blessings!

Hillcresthome Prims said...

Tam, I have your back. Some people in this world are very RUDE! This is not the first time that someone has attacked you and it is wrong. If they don't like your blog then they shouldn't read it. You have made your home for your FAMILY.
You do have antiques so I don't understand who this lady thinks she is.
I would love to see all of her "ANTIQUES" that she says that she has.
Pat do you have a blog? Show us all your so called antiques, Who is she to write to anyone and to tell you or anyone else what to write on YOUR blog. The last time I checked it is a free world we live in.
Sorry but I had to say what was on my mind because you don't deserve this at all! You are my friend and I will back you!
You know what your family loves and you hold your head up high and keep blogging.
Big Hugs girl,XO

Traci~Moon Gypsy said...

Morning Tam... So glad to hear that hubby's results were all good and you can now put your mind at rest. I think it's Awesome with a capital A that you two are still so much in love!
As for the email....just ignore it and any more you receive like it, people like that woman need to just !shut up! for goodness sakes.
Have a great time while your daughter is home... Hugs, Traci

oldepearprimitives said...

Hi Tam!

It's so nice to see you posting again. Don't worry about what that old coot had to say about your "antiques" She may know a lot about antiques but not much on spelling. You have enough on your plate. And I also wanted to say I am glad your husband is doing much better. Hugs and prayers for your family. I too married early. I got married when I was 19 and 10 years later we are still together. :)
Now, you go and take care of you and your husband. And have a wonderful time with your daughter when she comes home :)

~*Much Love*~


Deppen homestead 1862 said...

Tammy~ So happy to hear Hubby is fine~ Wow girl you have had a heavy burden on your shoulders~ I am so warmed by your words about Hubby & yourself~ your relationship~ love~ I don't think your dependent on him~ I would call it True Love~ just gives me goosebumps~ my hugs to the both of you~ and enjoy the time with Kelsey~

Jean Barker said...

Hi Tammy,
Glad to read your hubby is okay. Worry sure does wear on a person, doesn't it.
The person who sent that email must be the "Queen" of all things! I just can't understand why people are so rude! Your home is beautiful and filled with a warm loving feel. It shows in your photos.
Who is to say at what age a piece should be in order to be considered antique. nough said!
Have a wonderful time with Kelsey!
Many blessing to you,

Haggermaker4 said...

So glad your husband is okay! I could only wish that everyone feels the same about their husbands and you and I do :) As for the email you received from Pat Navratil...That was just stupid.. I think we need to find her and go roll her yard :) Take care of that hubby and yourself...we will be here waiting for your great posts when you decide that its time to share with us!

Your blog follower in Alabama
Tona Haggermaker

Pamela@ The Sampler Makers Farmhouse said...

Geez whiz Tammy, you seem to get a number of these rude emails- it is not your fault, nor is it your content. Chalk it up to bad luck. I have only gotten 1 rude mocking type comment, and that is what the delete button is for. I figure, the internet is a place of free speech, and as long as I don't infringe on anyone else, I can do as I please.
A while back, I saw you were asking how to set up a selling blog, with a different header on each page... with different categories. I can help you with that. I know how, I did it on my selling blog. Consider this some encouragement; when you are ready I can show you how :)
Your blog has been always lovely;

Susan At Glen Oaks Primitives said...

Hi, Tam! It's WONDERFUL that your daughter will be with you again. I hope she stays for a good long visit.
I'm so relieved for you and your husband. That stuff is scary and serious and I don't blame you for being emotionally wiped out. That would kill me, I'm totally like you, I depend on my mister for EVERYTHING,
I don't need the financial aspect either, but the really important things. Like you said, the person that loves you so much unconditionally, the one that ALWAYS has your back, everything you feel I feel the same way. I'd want to die without my partner.
I wouldn't, but I'd feel like it.
See, that's why those emails (like that fiasco with the last one) are so insignificant that they just need to be deleted and that's that, it never existed! You know what matters in your life and your home, and you know how many people love you and care about you and love to follow your blog. I don't know why you get these crappy emails but thank goodness for the "delete" button. You know there are hundreds of us that love following your blog so you are doing A LOT right!!

Kendra said...

OK, here's my mean email! Cruel, cruel, cruel making us all wait for the exciting news but I understand and will wait patiently! I am glad there is some good news in your home right now and I can't wait to hear what it is, in the mean time I am praying for His healing hand to be on your hubby and peace in your heart. I think I missed some things before, how are you doing and what ever became of the scare you had a while ago? Please let me know.
I understand your love for your hubby, I have been with mine since I was 16 and can't imagine life without him (to be honest we tried and it didn't work, yucky time of our lives). He too is my rock and about the only one that can talk any sense into me at times!
Have you heard the song that has a line "people throw rocks at things that shine" or something like that? Well, there you go. It stinks but it's true. So the next time someone emails you critisism (sp?) that's what you need to remember.

Love and prayers for your family,

Pam B said...

So glad that your hubby is better and you're getting back to normal. Sometimes it takes a scare like that to really make us appreciate our loved ones, doesn't it?

Boo hiss on the nasty lady...obviously her mother didn't teach her what ours did: If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all. For shame!

And your comment, “Well, I would like to see… myself 25 and a size 3 but…” made me truly laugh out loud! I'm there with ya, sister! LOL


Prims By The Water said...

So sorry to hear about your hubby sweetie. If something happened to my Bob, I do not know what I would I understand the relationship that you and your own hubby have. Just ignore the bad and rude folks..some can be down right idiots if you ask me..take care, Janice

peggy said...

hi Tammy, I'm so happy you joined me and led me back to your blog. I love meeting new bloggers and seeing what they are doing. I'm glad your hubby is okay and I am happy that you have such a love between the two of you. As for the rude person, that sounded a little like spam to me, if not, it should be considered spam. I don't care if its just old, older, or antique, all the same to me, it's all good. We'll be waiting for your news. Blessings, Peggy

My Colonial Home said...

Hi Tammy,
I'm sorry you have been going through so much...I do understand the pressure and stress knowing what you have been going is tough knowing our spouse is going through these trials and I'm with husband is my rock...been with him since I was 16. I am so happy things are on the upside for both of you now.

This 'person' who sent the e-mail sounds very much like the one who sent a similar one to 'Jen' Taylors Attic... Goodness these people must think they are the 'queen' of knowledge. Like you I feel they should just keep quiet.

Blessings Tammy

Robin at The Primitive Hutch said...

Oh Tammy
I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. But glad to hear your honey will be o.k. and life can get back to normal.
Will be thinking about you.
Hang in there.

TheCrankyCrow said... do we need to fashion you a blog sign that says "Be Nice Or Leave" or what??? I can't believe the crap you get sometimes. And it's just that - crap. I bet stuff in her house dates from the early 1800's....if not WAY before - like maybe the barbarian age from whence she and her lack of civility, respect, and manners obviously hails. Anywho - don't get me started....You know what ya gotta do....

Sorry to hear about all the stressors in your life, but glad things are looking up. It truly is difficult to imagine life without those we love and can only pray that God doesn't test us that way. Hope things continue to look up. Smiles & Hugs ~ Robin