I have started and stopped this post quite a few times.
Writing, deleting, then writing again.
Trying to decide what to post about.
Whether I want to post about everything.
Wanting to, then not.
I never want my blog to be a downer!!!
That is why so many drafts.
I think, I was just trying to force myself before I was ready.
But I’m doing better now.
For the past few weeks my husband has had some health issues.
First was a colonoscopy, which should be just a standard procedure…
Except he had a bad reaction to the anesthesia and got so sick from it.
We were already nervous about it because the last time he had surgery he stopped breathing on the table.
Luckily it didn’t happen this time, he just got very sick.
Then last Friday he had a biopsy.
We got the results yesterday and Praise the Lord, he is okay.
But this whole situation has had me an emotional wreck!!!
I haven’t been myself at all.
I haven’t felt like being online, to be honest, I haven't felt like doing much at all.
I just spent most of my time with him, watching TV and hanging out together.
Finally the haze this lifting and I’m starting to feel a little more like myself.
I would love to be able to tell you all that I am this fabulously strong, independent person but….
Something I realized over this these few weeks is,
I am very dependant on my husband.
He is my ROCK!
He is my everything.
I don’t know what I would do if he wasn't around.
It scares the Crap out of me!
And that’s the truth.
I’m not talking about financial things, even though yes I am dependant on him for that.
But I am talking about just the security of having him around.
The one person in this world that I know loves me completely.
The one person who will always have my back.
The one person who will push me when I need to be pushed.
Or just hold me when I need to be taken of.
We have been in each others lives since 7th grade!
I can’t hardly remember my life without him in it in some way or another.
We were married our senior year of high school.
(No I don’t recommend that, but I’m also not ashamed of the fact.)
This Nov. will be our 25th Wedding anniversary and I have been spending a lot of time just remembering and thinking about all the things we have been through together.
Oh what a Crazy yet wonderful adventure we have shared.
These past few weeks truly had me in an emotional overload.
I do want to say Thank you to those who emailed checking in.
It means a lot to know I was missed.
Well, I did get one email during all of this I could’ve done with out.
I open it up and read this….
From: Pat Navratil
Sent: Tuesday, January 31, 2012 2:34 PM
I would like to see some REAL antiques on this site ie things from the 1800s. stuff in my house dates from early 1800s to about eighteen fifty when most everything was hand made. some of your stuff has a little age but 1940s and onward is not yet 100 years old which it must be to qualify as an antique. Moat of the old stuff on your site should be called old stuff and collectibles!
I have no problem with the fact that some might visit my website and not care for it.
I can even admit that I have neglected it quite a bit over the last few months so selections are slim.
But who takes the time to email someone and criticize and insult them.
*Just choose not to revisit!!
When reading the, “I would like to see” comment one of the thoughts that came to my mind was.
“Well, I would like to see… myself 25 and a size 3 but…”
Shaking my head.
There are so many wonderful people in blogland but there are so many rude ones in the e-world.
Oh heck, in the real world too.
I just have so much difficulty understanding people when I get messages like this because I know I would never send anyone an email like this.
And no she didn't say anything too terribly awful, like some in the past.
But it is just the fact that here I am dealing with all I have been dealing with lately, sit down to read my emails, and find this!
Okay enough of my own personal craziness and ranting.
I did get some exciting news a couple of days ago.
And I do Really Want To Share it with all of you but…
I don’t want to jinx it so I’m going to wait.
Hopefully I will be able to share it soon.
Now, you may not hear from me again for about a week because Kelsey should be home tomorrow for a visit.
I’m going to be spending as much as possible with her.
But I’ll be back as soon as I can.
Thanks so much for stopping by to visit.
Until next time…
Take Care and Prim Filled Blessings to you ALL!