Monday, May 6, 2013

Rest Peacefully, Grandma

APP ~Tammy

(Grandma, Kelsey and Mitchell)

Yesterday my very loved Grandma passed away.

This is a difficult post for me to make.

When I am upset or sad, I don’t talk.

I shut down.

But I felt like I needed to get on and make a post for her….

For Me in honor of her.

How do I sum up a lifetime of Love and memories in one post?

I don’t.  It is impossible.

All I can do is share these random thoughts and memories.

Me, my sister and cousins were very blessed.

Blessed because not only did we get grandparents that loved us, which they did very much.

But we also were Blessed with Grandparents that liked us.

Ones that wanted us around.

Whenever, Anytime, All the time.

I can honestly say that never once in my life did they ever make me feel like I was burden or a hassle.

Never Ever.

In fact just the opposite.

They always wanted to bring us along.

Yearly vacations to Branson.

Or trips to Charlie’s farm in Peoria.

Camping at the lake.

Or just simply hanging out at their house.

Yes, We were Blessed!

APP ~Tammy

(Grandmad 1970’s)

The last few years my Grandma’s health started to decline.

And recently because of a fall she had to return to a nursing home.

Last week I went by for a visit.

I was able to share some happy news with her and she smiled and laughed.

This was our last visit together.

Our last words…

I told her before leaving, “I love you.”

“I love you.” she replied.

And I smiled and said, “I know you do.”

Our last words.

I am so blessed for those.

 

APP ~Tammy

(Grandma and my niece Erin)

 

I am sad for us.

Not for her.  I know she is in a better place now.

I know without a doubt she is with my Grandpa and all her loved ones in heaven.

I know she is happy.

Here on this earth, her body was wearing down.

She was no longer able to do all the things she loved so much.

I have so many memories of her out in her yard. 

Planting, mowing, painting.

She always had some type of project going on.

(Now you know where I get it from.)

She was also the type of woman that wanted things done when she wanted them done.

No waiting on others.

(Another thing I got!)

She was no longer this person.

Her life depended on others doing for her.

Knowing her, I know this must have drove her nuts.

Now she is free from all of this.

Like my other loved ones have said…

She now tending to the gardens in Heaven and I know Loving every minute of it.

But we all still here on earth have this hole in our hearts.

The spot that was filled by her.

APP ~Tammy

(Grandma and Kortney)

I wish I could go back for just one day.

Be young again.

Be with her.

Just for one day.

APP ~Tammy

(Grandma and Grandpa)

*Thanks for the photo Trish, that I stole from your FB page. :)

These random memories fill my head…

*Blue silk gown with matching robe.

*Fighting with my sister and cousins over who’s turn it was to sleep on the blue bean bag chair.

Somehow it was Always Vicki’s turn. ;)

*Falling asleep to the sounds of a mystery radio show.

*Waking to the smell of bacon frying.

*Grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch hour on school days.

*Dancing with Grandma in the living room floor.

*Laughter

*Love

APP ~Tammy 

Grandma’s last photograph taken a few days ago.

Hunter had gotten a new hair cut and wanted to go show grandma.

Oh, how she loved that boy.

Oh, how she loved All of Us!

APP ~Tammy

(Photo of Grandma when she was young.)

Rest peacefully, Grandma.

We love you very much!

Tammy

30 comments:

WoolenSails said...

What a wonderful tribute to your grandmother and she sounds like a wonderful woman. My thoughts are with you and your family and may that empty hole be filled with love and memories of the times she shared with you.

Debbie

Danice said...

Praying for you and your family, Tammy. That is truly a beautiful tribute you made to your Grandma. I felt like shutting down when my Grandma passed away also, so can relate to your emotions. Blessings to you.

Dog Trot Farm said...

What a very special lady your grandma was. She may be departed, but what wonderful cherished memories you have. As I was reading through your post it got me thinking about my grandmother and the wonderful memories I have of her. Please accept my sincere condolences, there is a new angel in heaven this day. Blessings, Julie.

Angela said...

So sorry for your loss Tammy. But what a great renunion in heaven. You will always have those special memories to hold close at heart. You and your family are in my prayers.
Angela

Primitive Stars said...

Oh Tammy, so sorry to hear the sad news....lovely tribute to your Grandmother, such a sweet lady...........We forever keep them warm and safe tucked away in our hearts........Hugs Francine.

bettyj said...

Tammy I am reading this with tears in my eyes. We are in the end of life here. It helped me because I know he will be doing things in heaven, just like your grandma. BTW You look like her when she was young! Beautiful. I wish I could do a post, but I can't right now.Thanks for sharing your Grandma with us.
What a role model.

Plumruncreek ♥ said...

So sorry for your loss. What a sweet Grandma,you were so lucky to have her.

Penny said...

Dear Tammy.... I am so sorry for your loss. Your tribute to your grandmother is so beautiful.... one can definitely tell how much you loved her. We have suffered a loss in my family, too.... as just last week my younger brother passed away. Two new angels in heaven. Your family and mine are all hurting right now, but as you said, they are in a better place, free of pain, and for this we can be happy... Wishing you and your family much comfort and peace as your mourn your loss....
Blessings,
Penny

Earlene Landis said...

Deep sadness for your loss Tammy but you sure had some great times with wonderful memories.
((Hugs))
Earlene

Bittersweetfolkart said...

So sorry for your loss Tammy
what a sweet lady she was ..

Hugs ~
Mandy

Raymond Homestead said...

Sorry for your loss Tammy. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

~Sara said...

What a beautiful post! How blessed you were to have had her for so long. Sending hugs and prayers. ~Sara

Phyllis said...

So sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful lady who loved you very much.

Sonia said...

Tammy, I'm so sorry.

This is a wonderful blog in remembrance of your Grandmother.

Keeping you and yours in prayer,
Sonia

cynthia lee designs said...

What a beautiful post. So sorry about the loss of your grandma. Saying prayers for you and your family.
hugs,
Cindy

Threesmallfry Primitives said...

I am so sorry for your loss.
What wonderful memories you have of her

Cyn said...

What a sweet Grandma!!! Lots of wonderful memories of her that you have hugs.

BumbleBeeLane said...

So sorry for your loss Tam.Prayers sent out for you and your family.Big Hugs!~Amy

Joyce Mayer said...

Prayers being said for you and your family. It is so difficult but please remember, it's not over. Think of the joy when we are all re-united in Heaven.

Blessings and Peace

Raggedy Creations said...

Beautiful tribute to a beautiful Lady. Hugs and sympathy being sent your way Tam.

Felicia

Carmen and the Primcats said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My sympathies.

Carmen and the Primcats

Theresa said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. You were blessed to have such a loving Grandmother in your life.

Dirty Martini Queen said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Grandma but what a great tribute you wrote for her. She sounds like an amazing woman and loved her family deeply.
Donna

Theresa said...

Sorry for your loss,Tammy.

Marydon said...

Such a loving precious share of Grandma, Tammy. May she rest gently at the feet of Jesus.
TTFN ~ Marydon

janzi said...

What a touching and heartfelt post, sharing with us all, the pictures and stories of your grandma, who incidentally looks a lot like you.. and we were so lucky in being able to share those thoughts which you put on your blog. God bless them and all the other grandparents who nourish and care for the family they have made.. Hugs for you , feeling your loss, Janzi

prims by olde lady morgan said...

Tammy,

what a wonderful Tribute to your Grandma! You have the most wonderful memories! Hold them close! Hugs my friend! OLM

Lori @ applegrovetreasures said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Such wonderful words you wrote. Your Grandmother was a beautiful woman, may she rest in peace. Prayers sent your way ~ God bless.
~Lori

Sandi @ The Primitive Skate said...

Sorry for your Loss, Tammy!
I'm just catching up on Blog reading, I have been without Internet for 2 days. Sending Hugs and Prayers your way! Take Care!

Deb Paxton Valley Folk Art said...

Tammy, my deepest sympathies to you and your family on the loss of your beloved Grandma. A wonderful post in her memory, she was a beautiful woman and obviously very beloved by you all. {{hugs}} to you and yours, Deb