(Grandma, Kelsey and Mitchell)
Yesterday my very loved Grandma passed away.
This is a difficult post for me to make.
When I am upset or sad, I don’t talk.
I shut down.
But I felt like I needed to get on and make a post for her….
For Me in honor of her.
How do I sum up a lifetime of Love and memories in one post?
I don’t. It is impossible.
All I can do is share these random thoughts and memories.
Me, my sister and cousins were very blessed.
Blessed because not only did we get grandparents that loved us, which they did very much.
But we also were Blessed with Grandparents that liked us.
Ones that wanted us around.
Whenever, Anytime, All the time.
I can honestly say that never once in my life did they ever make me feel like I was burden or a hassle.
In fact just the opposite.
They always wanted to bring us along.
Yearly vacations to Branson.
Or trips to Charlie’s farm in Peoria.
Camping at the lake.
Or just simply hanging out at their house.
Yes, We were Blessed!
The last few years my Grandma’s health started to decline.
And recently because of a fall she had to return to a nursing home.
Last week I went by for a visit.
I was able to share some happy news with her and she smiled and laughed.
This was our last visit together.
Our last words…
I told her before leaving, “I love you.”
“I love you.” she replied.
And I smiled and said, “I know you do.”
Our last words.
I am so blessed for those.
(Grandma and my niece Erin)
I am sad for us.
Not for her. I know she is in a better place now.
I know without a doubt she is with my Grandpa and all her loved ones in heaven.
I know she is happy.
Here on this earth, her body was wearing down.
She was no longer able to do all the things she loved so much.
I have so many memories of her out in her yard.
Planting, mowing, painting.
She always had some type of project going on.
(Now you know where I get it from.)
She was also the type of woman that wanted things done when she wanted them done.
No waiting on others.
(Another thing I got!)
She was no longer this person.
Her life depended on others doing for her.
Knowing her, I know this must have drove her nuts.
Now she is free from all of this.
Like my other loved ones have said…
She now tending to the gardens in Heaven and I know Loving every minute of it.
But we all still here on earth have this hole in our hearts.
The spot that was filled by her.
(Grandma and Kortney)
I wish I could go back for just one day.
Be young again.
Be with her.
Just for one day.
(Grandma and Grandpa)
*Thanks for the photo Trish, that I stole from your FB page. :)
These random memories fill my head…
*Blue silk gown with matching robe.
*Fighting with my sister and cousins over who’s turn it was to sleep on the blue bean bag chair.
Somehow it was Always Vicki’s turn. ;)
*Falling asleep to the sounds of a mystery radio show.
*Waking to the smell of bacon frying.
*Grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch hour on school days.
*Dancing with Grandma in the living room floor.
Grandma’s last photograph taken a few days ago.
Hunter had gotten a new hair cut and wanted to go show grandma.
Oh, how she loved that boy.
Oh, how she loved All of Us!
(Photo of Grandma when she was young.)
Rest peacefully, Grandma.
We love you very much!